Feels like you're a piece of Side-walk Chalk

What do you do when your friends' worlds are crashing down around them while you're still standing? How do you comfort a friend who's just cut themself when you have no idea what they're going through? How do you encourage someone while they're parent is saying things you never imagined a parent could say?I'm sheltered. I have no idea what to say to my friends! I end up repeating myself: "i'm sorry."I know sorry isn't goo enough. It doesn't help them any. Why did I have to get it so good? I'm the type of person who wouldn't have suffered too terribly if I struggled. Why does it seem like everyone around me is in pain and I feel fine. I want to be able to do something for them and I can't. Remember when you drew with chalk and would get one shape drawn and already the chalk was down to a stub? You could feel it turning to dust in your fingers as it ground against the cement. Life sucks like that sometimes. And the best you can do is make sure the picture that's being drawn is worth it. That it leaves a stain even after a rain tries to wash it away.

Jet-Setter

I love to travel. And right now it's what I'm consumed with. I'm in the process of paying for and preparing myself for a trip to South Asia for missions work. I've never been out of the United States before but it's what I long for. I want to go anywhere and everywhere. I love cultures and people. I could care less about the sights and landscapes.

This trip is the beginning of craziness. I feel like it's my affirmation from God that I AM going to get to travel. I used to always believe I'd be stuck in the South forever. Not that that's a bad thing but it's not where my heart is.

It's scary. I mean, it's not exactly the safest place to travel and I wouldn't say I'm the type of person who is a "go-getter". I like being dependent on other people. I don't know what to expect and that ALWAYS scares me. I'm excited though. How many people can say they got to go to Asia when they were 17! I am truly blessed beyond belief.

Brief Overview

Blogs. I've been told they are for the vain and shallow people who just want to talk about themselves. However, that is the last thing I want this to become. This blog is to track a beautiful and life-changing journey I am about to embark upon. Some people wait for life to happen and forget they have to take the first step. Withing the past month I have taken the first few steps and am sure that I can't (nor do I want to) go back. This is my journey.