Line Obsession: "This light is contagious, go go tell your neighbors. Just reach out and pass it on."
I was watching Anne of Green Gables last night and even though Anne of Avonlea is my favorite I am always embarrassed and supremely empowered by Anne. She's so spunky and dreamy and human. She acts without thinking oftentimes and yet thinks so much that people think she's stuck in her imagination. But in reality we know her better than that. She's just being herself, even if she's not always confident in who she is. And that is something so rare and respectable.
People make me nervous. Especially people I only sort of know, they make me the most nervous. But I've done it before (stepping up to build relationships and lead when I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing), I can do it again (The trick is to act before you can psych/rationalize your way out of it). It's just about remembering that living for God is way more thrilling and rewarding. Therefore, I can live even if I'm afraid, even with butterflies in my stomach I can step up and do something...or a lot of somethings.
Hasn't God already proved to me over and over that He enjoys to use me if I just let Him?! He proved that to me last year at school, He used me even as a freshman to impact the people around me. And He used me at camp to impact not just the campers but my fellow staff.
The more I watch people, the more I realize that no one will ever know how much 1)people look up to them, 2)of an imprint they leave on people's hearts, 3)change they lead
I'm starting to believe that no matter who or where you are that you matter and are a world-changer, even if you don't intend to. So more people should start living like it.
That's one of the biggest lessons I tried to teach my campers, especially since I had the older girls: be a good example because you're an example whether you like it or not.
That's not to say that I'm perfect, one of the biggest reasons I don't act is because I'm afraid people will see me mess up and it will ruin my testimony. How prideful of me! To think that anything I could do would sway the hearts of men more than God already is. Thus, reinforcing the assurance in being able to speak and act in spite of my fear.
