More Like Falling In Love

So I'm kinda in the middle of some high school drama....and I really don't like it. But besides that, God is showing me that...it's all very petty. What does it matter? If I'm following my convictions and living a life of praise to my God then, quite honestly, I'm not sorry I've upset you. Because while I care about you and your opinions (because I really do) they are not the most important. And as hard as it is for me, I will not apologize for putting Jesus before you. (And that goes for all of you).

Which brings me to what I'm learning in my heart. It's not that you don't matter, it's just that this year God has become SO real to me, that I truly understand that He matters more. Because He's worth it.

This year: 2010. I am labeling it "The Year of Identity". I do not find it a coincidence that God has chosen this year to teach me who God is and who I am in Him, especially since I am going to college next year and will definitely need to know where I stand.

Let's see what God has taught me so far:

• Treasured: This spring God showed me that I am precious to Him. I am His chosen, treasured, lovely in His sight.
• Daughter: This summer, before my trip, Jesus taught me what it means to have a heavenly Father. He made the story of the prodigal son really come to life.
• Warrior: In India I realized how strong I am in Christ and how powerful the spirit is that lives in me.
• Princess: After my trip, I learned that this does not mean I'm a spoiled brat who thinks she deserves everything, rather, that I am an advocate for the people, I am not afraid to get down and dirty and build relationships and take that back to the throne room, where I am welcomed.
• Friend: Most recently, I have experienced Jesus as my best friend. My closest confidant. My caring companion. My heart and soul. I do not even want to imagine where I'd be without Him.

I CANNOT wait to see what else God is going to teach me. With almost 3 whole months left, I know God still wants to show me many things about who I am and how He desires our relationship to look. I have never been so in love with My Jesus than I am. I have come a loooong way since, well... May actually. I praise God for how quickly He can change our hearts. How earnestly He yearns for closeness with us. He never ceases to blow my mind. :)