Even Your Scars Are Lovely

Tonight I was taking my dear sister Sha'kera home (that relationship is for another post). And on my way home I was singing the song "Scars" by Chris Sligh, which is totally amazing and anyone who has been hurt by anything in any way should hear it.

So I'm singing the song and one line I never heard before says: "Even your scars are lovely."

And as an immediate reaction I said, "haha God my scars aren't lovely to you. They make you cringe and ache that there was a time that I hated you." And as soon as I said it I knew I was wrong.

So that's what I'm pondering tonight, as I should be doing my homework. What are my scars, or are they still wounds, and asking God to show me how He sees them and what He thinks.

So far He's said that they are lovely because I would not love Him as much if I did not have them. They are lovely because I would not be able to show others how much I love Him if I didn't have them.

So tonight I'm thanking God for healing my wounds and turning them into scars. Sometimes they are embarrassing and I want to cover them up but God gave them to me so they can be seen. It's still hard to talk about, I even feel guilty for thinking about it a lot, but God knows that and He's walking me through it.