Sooner or Later

So I haven't posted in a while. And it's super late and I'm in a hyper goofy mood so this will probably be all over the place. BE FOREWARNED!

I'm not really excited about how the Bible study part of the Bible study that I was "leading" tonight went with Intervarsity. However, I am crazy excited about the wonderful friends I have there and the special worship time I had with Jesus tonight.

I miss everyone back home so badly, but I also love everyone here so much as well. I can't imagine not being here and not meeting them, I'm pretty sure I'd be nearly miserable. Praise God for His faithfulness and timing. Seriously, I'm gonna cry when they graduate. But I know that by then there will be others too.

It's weird because my heart is so light and joyful and at the same time so burdened and hurting for other people here.

Some days I feel closer to God than I've ever been, most days. And other times I feel like I've hit a wall. You know how you feel when you're at a turning point and it's either you jump in head first or take two steps back? Yeah, well I'm not even getting a running start, I don't even want to go back that much. I just want to move forward, and until then I have to press in to that wall.

So this is what I'm doing, trying to do. Surrender, love others, learn Truth. And it is so wonderful. And even if I don't feel everything all the time, I know I'm growing.

Praying for answers is hard. But that's another story, for another time. For now I must try to sleep.