Junior-itis

You know how as a senior in high school, the last couple weeks is always the hardest? Well, I'm pretty much there. I know it's not exactly the same, but I'm hating school right now (which is definitely almost blasphemous for me). My closest friends, save one or two, are gone since they were seniors and I skip all but two classes because I do absolutely nothing anymore. I'm done with just about every one of my finals. I'm so ready to be a senior. Now, I know it will go by WAY to fast, and I am NOT looking forward to that one bit. But I am ready for summer and then to be a senior and get to work, start seriously looking at colleges, and enjoying my special senior year. I still don't like to say it though. I think I'm in denial. :P I hate saying that I'm 17 or that I'm gonna be senior. I don't want to grow up. I mean, I'm excited, but it's certainly daunting.

I guess I hate it so much cause to me, growing up means change and change almost inevitably means saying good-bye to a lot of things. I feel like I've had to say good-bye to so many people already. And next year I'll be moving on from so much else. The seniors told me Saturday things like, "I'll come back." or "We'll still see each other." But honestly, do they believe that? I hope so. Cause I love you and I hate that feeling of not seeing your face every morning when I walk into school or even just hearing you and smiling. But change isn't bad. I've never believed that.

No, change (hopefully) brings growth. And yes, good-byes are hard, but there's always a new hello. It's just a matter of embracing it fully. For instance, I'm gonna be saying hello to new leadership roles (yikes, that's a scary thought). And to knew classes and ideas and knowledge which I am super stoked about. :D And then of course, there's hello to new places: college, possibly a new city, and even new countries. AH!!!

I am SOOOO thrilled about my trip. I absolutely cannot wait! We had a super long meeting yesterday to learn the 3 dramas we'll perform and go over specific etiquette. There's a lot I'm gonna have to get used to. I really need to start getting in shape now. We leave exactly 7 weeks from yesterday...wow. It can't come fast enough. I'm not nearly as nervous as I was a week ago.

My attitude is changing as I try to stay focused. I've realized that although it's hard, it's neat to see Satan attacking us the way he is....because it means he's scared! He sees the power we hold and the glory that is going to be displayed on our trip and wants to cut it off. Haha that idea is so thrilling! He's scared! God is already doing an amazing work in my life and I can feel that He's doing stuff around me. I can't wait to see it all.