Well this is new...

People tell you all the time "You have to be prepared in college cause you'll get tested spiritually in ways you've never imagined before" But what happens when it starts even before you leave?

I'm just really discouraged. I feel like my whole life people have told me I can do anything I want (and they have) but now that I'm coming a place and time where I can actually decide what I want to do they question it like it's wrong. Maybe they're just trying to prepare me and make sure I'm making the right decisions, but I still don't have to like it do I? Everyone tells you to start figuring out what you want to do, so I do, and then they say "you wanna do what.....?" It hurts. Cause I want to please them, but I know this is what I wanna do, what I'm called to do. And if God for sure tells me "this is what you're going to do, this is what I want for you" do I really have to question it further and check out other options? I wouldn't think so. I mean, I see where mom is coming from but I don't necessarily have to visit a college to know if it's right, especially if I find out everything else is wrong....am I right?

I just wish I felt more support from my family. What if I'm not meant to stay home? Why is it so wrong for me to leave? I never said it would be easy for me, but you don't have to make it harder. I dunno.....