I still can't answer that question, and if I ever tried I'd just be making something up. I was so frustrated with myself for all the lost time. High schoolers are some of the most powerful, empowered people with the most opportunities. And I wasted 3 years on myself, reaching for my goals (sometimes rebelling against them). And now I look at all that I had and say to myself "why didn't I take advantage? I could have done so many wonderful things for the Kingdom."
And Jesus keeps laying these two simple words on my heart: Start Now. I have to do something about it now. If I keep living in my regrets I'll miss out on each new season that comes.
I'm encouraged to take what I learned in living an ungodly life in high school and transforming it into my college life.
God didn't want me to hurt or my heart to break or emptiness to consume me the way it did, but he can use those scars to relate to people I'm going to meet. He's already told me that my story is going to be powerful in how I relate and respond to other people.
I also have to take into consideration what I learned in Atlanta: People are people, priceless children of God, not objects to be fixed or helped with my "Christian charity" but to be loved and told they're valued through true humility.
Anyway, that's how God moved my heart this morning. He continues to mold me for college and what lies beyond. I praise Him for having brought me so far. It blows my mind. He never ceases to amaze me. Love it.
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