Re-Learning the Same Old Lessons

Now Playing: Revelation Song

"Immediately they left the boat and their father and followed him."
 -Matthew 4:22 (ESV)

Recently I've caught myself a lot been convicted by the Holy Spirit a lot of just how often I claim my career or major as my identity. Whenever people comment on what I say or how I communicate I attribute it to being a teacher or an English major. Which is great, God has placed those desires and talents in my heart.

But those things aren't what defines me. I am called by a different title: Princess, Treasure, Warrior, Servant, Lover...

So tonight at small group, when a dear friend stated the possibility of God demanding us to leave everything we have placed our identities in (as Matthew 4:22 says) I immediately said "No" to the Holy Spirit. It's hard to think about giving up everything you've worked so hard for and have looked so forward to for so long.

I use the excuse, "but I just can't imagine myself doing anything else. Surely this is what I was made for." But according to Urbana '12, I was made for something greater. And only God knows what I will be doing, what He'll be doing through me.

I am so thankful to God for the truth that He has spoken through my friends recently and for the unquenchable thirst for Him that He has placed in my heart. Even when I try to live out of my own works, I feel that tug on my heart, my spirit cries for something deeper, for truth, for real power. And I'm so so so grateful. Like the prodigal son who sees His Father waiting anxiously for His return. Because I am so in love with Him, I'm not content with a long-distance relationship. I need Him here and now. He's the beau waiting with flowers as I step off of the plane.

And now I've gotten onto a tangent...but I usually tend to do that. Once you start praising God for who He is, you can't stop. Worship is such a powerful thing. Because He deserves it, oh how He deserves it.

Lord, I want to live a life of worship. May your praise never leave my lips. I so badly want to get back to the time we used to spend alone together. Show me how, open my eyes to the opportunities I have to spend with you. I don't want to keep ignoring them. I need you, Jesus, my Love.