What are You Waiting For?

"I will follow you, Lord, but let me first say farewell to those at my home. Jesus said to him, 'No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God.'"
Luke 9:61-62

Man these verses hit me like a ton of bricks this morning. Because I'm about to jump into the next adventure God has for me, and instead of preparing for it I've spent my time missing my last adventure. It was a great adventure. And Jesus taught me so so so much through it. And I know they are memories to cherish for forever, but I don't need to wallow. I was there, and now God's taking me somewhere else, and that is a very good thing. I must choose to trust that my God is capable of handling what I was a part of. This:

These girls are just a couple of the most amazing people ever that I spent last summer, and the past three years hanging out with. I used to call them "my middle schoolers" although now they're starting high school. Crazy. And they're at camp this week and I've already seen and heard that God is doing incredible things up there. Which makes me miss them and wish I was there. But I know that they are becoming leaders now and I am so intensely proud of them. But I do wish that I was there to see it all first-hand. 

Which is why Luke 9:62 was a reality check. Next week I'm headed up to Burkesville, KY (don't ask, I have no earthly idea where it is, although I've been told it's the middle of no where). To work with kids all summer at a camp. And up until now I've been super extremely digging my heels in kind of nervous because this is something completely new for me and I have no idea what to expect. But then Jesus was like "who cares, I'm already there and you know this is what I've told you to do. Why aren't you letting me handle it and why are you so hesitant to grow and change?" I've always said I'm a sucker for change. But in order for that to happen I have to stop looking to the past.

I will never stop praying for my kids, I am so proud of them. But I must also begin to pray for my new kids at camp this summer and for my new peers and all of the adventures that are waiting for me in Kentucky. 

My summers are anything but routine and this year is no different. I don't know what's going to happen. But I know it's going to be great. And I know that even when I'm not there 24/7 I'm still leading my now-high-schoolers by example. So that they see me following God faithfully, trusting that He has the plan mapped out and taken care of all the details. I pray that they have the strength and wisdom to do so the first time God calls them. They're already so far ahead of where so many people my age are at spiritually, plus they're just so much fun. :)