Ride of a Lifetime

You know that feeling when you're sitting a roller coaster right before it takes off and you double-triple check your seat restraint? You know it's secure, cause you tightened it so much you can't breathe, but you still check it anyway because you just know that when this ride goes upside down you don't wanna fall. Maybe it's not even that, maybe it's just that you don't wanna get slung from side to side during the first few jerks.

Most of my friends from school were gone this week to Orlando for senior trip. And I must say, although it would have been loads of fun I'm glad I didn't go. I'm needed here to tie up loose ends, make sure my skirt isn't dragging the ground (that way it won't get caught in anything and pull me down) and to double-triple check my seat restraint.

I don't yet know what this means. God just gives me crazy metaphors and I eat it up. I'm like a cow in that way. I get something and chew and chew and chew and then when I think I've pondered it enough and figure it out I swallow it. But then I spit it up and mull it over for a while longer. This occurs multiple times until I finally figure out what it means to me (which often changes).

See, that was a crazy metaphor...one of my weirder ones.

Anyway, what I meant was that I'm still mulling this one over.

By meditating on some stuff this week I realized that I'm an observer. I love people-watching and listening and learning and loving from a distance. This combined with the fact that I like to stifle and suppress is not very good. I would much rather observe and contemplate how others process and deal and react that face the facts myself. That's why I don't watch the news very often...it means I have to deal with the emotions that come with devastation.

A friend who has been in a similar season (just refocusing and finding God in the "hidden-ness" and the secret place) shared a verse with me this week: Psalm 27:14

Wait for the LORD;
be courageous and let your heart be strong.
Wait for the LORD.

Literally translated, the word "wait" means to be eagerly expectant. We must be eagerly expectant for the Lord; we must be courageous and let our hearts be strong as we eagerly expect what the Lord is doing. That's exciting stuff right there. Just wait for the good work that He's promised will be brought to completion within us.

So today, I choose to "Wait for the Lord" and meditate on all which that short verse means. God promises favor for His children, and therefore, we should expect it and welcome it as love from the Father.

http://utmost.org/reaching-beyond-our-grasp/