Esu Walewah - God is so good

I've said this before. I felt more at home in South Asia than I ever have here in the states. I've never felt like I fit in so much. For some reason, my heart really misses it today. I just wanna go back so badly. I love most of everything here but it's just so different. Okay God, you're right, I know that my friends here need Jesus just as much as those who have never heard of You but I don't wanna do it. It's so hard, especially when no one at school seems like they don't want to listen to me. Sigh, you're right again....they watch me and listen to me more than I give them credit for, more than I'll ever know. But I'm screwing it up. I'm blowing my chances. I mean, I saw how Micah just jumped into a conversation about religion off the tip of his hat....why can't I see opportunities like that. Am I not looking for them? Am I not supposed to find them? I'm so confused. I need you to remind me that prayer walking the hallways is enough. I need you to remind me to leave it up to you. I'll be honest with you though.....I still would rather be overseas. But I do love your people here. I really do. And I'm trying my hardest to glorify you. You know that....

I would really love if you took me back though. Really and truly. Next summer, maybe? Please?